At this point, what I need the most is just an apology text from you—
You, who should admit your cheating, your lies, your betrayal.
And that might help my depression. A lot.
Because of you,
I have an unnecessary hatred toward some *golongan “menunjuk warak”*—or to be exact, people like you. I even have trust issues with some *ustaz*. Are they pretending? These people who show faith, who invite others to faith—are they really good, inside and out?
You, whom I *thought* was kind, manipulated and gaslit me to shift the blame for your own faults. Yet, you still cheated.
And while performing *umrah*? That’s disgusting.
And you’re still searching for any excuse to blame me.
