31 October 2024
I never knew I could be terrified by fireworks.
The louder they get,
the more fear comes.
All the memories flash through my mind,
along with those empty promises.
I try to fill all these thoughts with tears,
my mind screaming,
but neither seems to help.
Can anyone
understand me in this state?
Can anyone
help me through this?
Dear Mr. Hypocrite,
how are you?
Can’t you see?
The cost of your betrayal?
Are you still smiling?
Proud of someone else’s pain?
Or proud you have someone to replace me?
Or… proud of the lies you created?
I’m getting better today,
feeling a little more at ease,
but still struggling with faith.
I don’t know why,
but I feel so distant from Allah.
And I’m searching for a way back.
InshaAllah,
I believe
Allah Maha Adil
