Hi. It’s another me speaking.
I just came back from my best friend’s raya open house.
It was fun.
I became myself as usual,
laughing, joking, trolling.
Although sometimes I felt awkward with her friends,
I can always adjust
and match their energy.
While socialising with them,
I looked at my friend in front of me.
Lately, I’ve been feeling a distance between us.
I feel like she doesn’t need me anymore,
or doesn’t want to share anything with me,
or maybe she’s just tired of me.
Sometimes, when I match people’s energy,
I end up lying about myself too.
I can be hypocritical with my opinions,
just to make myself look wise.
And I think sometimes
that could make people tired of me
because my actions don’t match what I say
So tonight, when I came to her open house,
I opened my heart
just to let go of these bad feelings.
We’ve been friends for 16 years.
How could I even have these thoughts?
And I looked at her,
smiling and happy with her circle of friends,
and of course, with her boyfriend by her side.
Suddenly, I felt sad.
My eyes started to tear up.
I realised something,
“Yes, I will lose her one day,
and I should always be ready for that.”
No one will stay with us forever.
They all have their own lives to live.
Even your own family,
when you’re no longer in this world,
they will carry on with their lives.
Everyone…
everyone can live without you.
But can you live without them?
