when i laugh that loud?
you'll be confused,
on HOW HAPPY i looked,
and i do sounds HAPPY.
do i ?
let's do some overview on how my mind works
Baking > Feels happy > eat the dessert > Family happy > Me happy > overthink of how much dessert I ate > Not happy the day after
Play games > feels happy > look at time, omg i wasted this much of time? > Unhappy with it
Talk with friends > Feels happy > Overshared > The highest level of unhappy
Go out and run > tired > happy with the result > came back home > not satisfied with body > unhappy
Eat > So happy > keep on eating > Still happy and satisfied > The longest moment of happy > Full, then regret > Insecure > Unhappy, overthink. not confident to meet with people
Lets shop for new outfits > Try on outfits > Insecure when body doesnt fit the look > Insecure, unhappy
Lets play piano or guitar > Do mistakes > Unhappy with how long I take to master it
Watch kdrama > happy > feels tired > "Damn are you a cow? That's why you're that fat." > unhappy
how, the hell, am i supposed to do with these mindsets
